Getting crazier by the minute

Haven't been on here in a while and that's because I am losing my mind more than ever. My child is just about to start summer vacation and both my boys together, all day long are going to take me to new limits. I am already having panic attacks. I have 2 high maintenance children. All I hear every minute of the day, is Mommy, Mommy, Mommy... over and over again. You would think that they can't walk by themselves. I might sound like the worst mom in the world at the moment, but I am just worn out. I need a vacation and not summer vacation. I will stop venting for now.